In short I think I've lost my mojo!
I gotta find something to do...maybe a hobby or something?.
Age 53, Married w 3 grown adult kids, and 1 grand kid just arrived.
I just can't seem to get motivated anymore.
I used to live and work to hunt & fish.
Have a nice F 250 toy hauler and 25 ft boat to fish. Have guns to shoot.
Haven't been fishing or shooting in 5 years! I just can't be fricked with all the cost and hassle (govt red tape & licensing costs)... of fishing or hunting any more.
I have done some volunteer work the last 4 years helping families of long term missing kids.... to try and locate their long term missing loved ones (i.e try to locate their remains coz after 10 years and no bank account use, they are usually unsolved homicides that POPO is just to lazy to upgrade to a homicide, coz they can't find the remains).
Ended up training my own cadaver dog for that purpose.
Anyway - I have led a very blessed life...and done most what I wanted to do in life - my kids are all great - self actuated - and young, capable adults - in short I'm not needed much any more nowadays.
Missus has a career in Public health service at a local hospital.
I'm at a loss... I can do anything I want - (within reason, we aren't rich)
I've done many jobs for the last 35 years, often 3 at a time.
I'm essentially retired (Who's going to employ a fat lazy 53 year old these days).
I don't have to work - heck I don't even want to work...I have all the time in the world - and can do anything - but to be honest I just can't be bothered getting started these days.
I've hunted pretty much anything I wanted to hunt and caught most of the fish I ever wanted to catch...
Truly I've been blessed - but right now I have no purpose in life.
8 years I was a wildlife officer & forester/firefighter
10 years in railway engineering.
20 years I owned a sawmill and furniture cabinets joinery business
20 years deer farming at same time as timber business.
15 years as a fishing guide and charter fishing skipper.
1 year managing a pearl farm and offshore island charter fishing lodge.
I am all fished out, hunted out, and worked out & stressed out.
Frick it, I think I burned out...coz it seems like I fitted 2 lives into one thus far.
Just finished building myself a new man cave, 20feet x 23 feet.
Keep thinking maybe I will take up making timber rifle stocks.... but after 20 years wood butchering I still have 10 fingers and 10 toes after a few near misses and broken bones - it seems like it might be a dumb move to go back to timber work (my lungs got dusted with the formadehyde in particle board making kitchens and it's taken me almost 10 years to quit coughing like a 2 pack a day smoker, when I never smoked a single day in my life).
I'm all of 270 pounds. My hairs fallin' out. I was all but blind but lazer eye surgery gave me back 20 / 20 long site for my 100 tonne masters quals.
I'm fricked if I know, what to do with myself - maybe take up metal detecting for gold nuggets or something?
I'm bored batshyte crazy here...
I take care of my 83 year old mum now that she's getting on a bit, drive her to all medical appointments etc.
I wish I knew what I was meant to do in life...
I never planned for this stage of life.... it sorta snuk up and caught me out unawares/unprepared.
I CAN do anything I pretty much want, but just can't be bothered/motivated doing much of anything and therein lies the problem.
Any suggestions coz it's killin me!
I tried ringin the depression lifeline for advice, - but our Govt outsourced it to some Indians in Mumbai, and when I said I thought I might be feeling suicidal, they all got real excited like, and asked could I drive a truck, and did I know anything about rigging explosives!
(Kidding about the suicidal bit, I ain't that bad yet - but if I don't find something worthwhile to do with myself soon i could end up that way one day).
Heck even doing something part time that gets me outta the house would probably be a good start.
Any Suggestions (besides get skinny, get a haircut and get a real job?)